Friday I went in for my Day 12 ultrasound... I think it was actually Day 14 since I got started on the Clomid a little late. There was no dominant follicle, but there were a few small ones. So I was scheduled to go back today, Monday.

Today... no follicle. So unless he just didn't see it, it looks like the Clomid didn't work this month. It's really disappointing. Beyond disappointing actually.

So next week I'll have bloodwork done to check my Progesterone level and see if I ovulated but we didn't see it somehow. If it's positive, then I'll menstruate on my own. If not then I'll be on progesterone to start my period.

Where do we go from here? That's been the big question.

Dr. Richards talked a little about moving to injectible meds, which would be a lot more expensive... like $1,000 just for the drugs. But they are more reliable, according to him.

I almost feel like we should take a couple of months off. I need to get my blood pressure under control... it's been consistently high. Plus I could use the time to lose some weight. We're also debating about changing doctors when we go back. Not that we don't like Dr. Richards... I LOVE him! But he's very conservative and cautious in his approach. I feel like we need to be a little more aggressive. So we're thinking maybe one of the doctors we saw on call on a weekend might fit a little better.

I don't know... it's all just talk right now. We have time to think about it, I mean we have to actually finish this cycle, right?

Just trying to think about things objectively and make some decisions. We'll see where it goes.

On the blood pressure note though, Dr. Richards switched me to a different medication on Friday. He was a touch upset that I didn't get it filled this weekend so he could see if it was working today! Needless to say I went to the pharmacy on the way home, got it, took it, and then a few hours later took my blood pressure. Holy cow! It definitely worked!! I went from 154/115 this afternoon at my appointment to 126/74 this evening! WOW! And YAY! Because that will help us avoid a lot of problems later when I do get pregnant.

*sigh* Tomorrow is another day, right?

I've been bad about keeping up with things... meant to blog this weekend and didn't, so here's two updates in one.

I went to Dr. Richards on Friday for my Day 12 ultrasound to measure the follicle (if there was one!). I had one (and only one!), and it was about 14mm. We want it to be 18mm, so I got sent home with instructions to do Ovulation Predictor Kit (OPK) tests. If it turned positive, call and schedule the IUI. If not, come back on Tuesday (Day 15) for another ultrasound.

Well, nothing happened over the weekend (that I could tell), so I went in today for the ultrasound. You're not going to believe this.... It was GONE!! He couldn't find the follicle. I mean, a 14mm follicle doesn't just disappear! He said it's possible that I could have ovulated and missed it (in which case I will be seriously PISSED).

So I'm supposed to keep doing the OPK for a few days in case HE just missed it on the ultrasound, and if no positive, then I'll go in early next week for blood work to see if I have an elevated Progesterone level. If it's elevated then I ovulated and missed it. If not, then the Clomid didn't make me ovulate this month. But I just find it very strange that a good size follicle, almost fully matured, would just vanish!

Call Sherlock! It's the case of the missing follicle!!

Why? Because I started my period today! I guess it's good, but does it mean that I'm ovulating now? Or at least this month? Also, it's only been 20 days from the start of my last period... usually your cycle is 28 days. So what does that mean? I'm just so confused and have so many questions! UGH!!!

But the good news is that my endocrinology appointment is this Thursday. Oh yeah, and I turn 28 on Tuesday!

Here's to another week!
~Heather

Just popping in for a (hopefully) quick update.

Talked to the nurse at Dr. Richards' office today. Jack's swimmers are just fine. No problems there. They are waiting for my HSG tests to come back... should be later this week... but the radiologist told me everything looked great there.

So here came my next question.... now what?

Well, I go see the endocrinologist. Which sucks. Totally. Because my endocrinologist appointment isn't until after Thanksgiving. UGH!! I am SOOO not patient. I mean, that's like SIX weeks away!!! I think I might call them and see if they've had any cancellations. Supposedly I'm on the cancellation list, but I just want to make sure.

My big burning question (that I didn't ask!) is do I have eggs that just aren't being released? I know that I'm not releasing eggs because I don't have a period. But are there any there at all? Are they just sitting there not getting the signal to be released? If so, then there's a shot that will trigger them to release. But again... I don' t know if that's an option.

Maybe I'll call Dr. Richard's nurse tomorrow and ask. The radiologist said she can't tell that on her X-ray thing, that they have to do a sonogram to tell if there are any follicles, eggs, and sizes/stages. Maybe we can do that in the next six weeks. Who knows.

Today's been a rough day. I don't know why, but all of this stuff has just really been on my mind today. I've been so busy with work, but my mind keeps going back over and over again thinking about our situation. Wondering if it will ever happen for us (see, I told you I'm not a patient person!). It's a very, very frustrating place to be. Ok, stopping there... don't want to start crying again.

So much for quick! lol
~Heather